so far so good =]

i haven't met one of those walls...yet....
you know..the walls that look way bigger than they actually are..
and make you very stressed and completely depressed...
and you're afraid to even attempt climbing over it...
yea...everyone probably knows...

i haven't met one of those yet..so everything's pretty good so far~ ^^

...but then again..i haven't actually "started" the application process....=/

how bad can it be?

Temporary

It hasn't even been a full 2 weeks since we've gotten back from our missions trip. Yet it feels as if it's been years. Far from the eyes, far from the heart. I hate to say it but it's true. As soon as missions was over, I has so much passion and desire to pray for those people in Arizona, to write to the children, to maybe even make a phone call. Yet, here I am, not having written a single letter, not having made a single phone call....and really..how often have i prayed for them this past week and a half? I'm not that devoted missionary anymore..where has all that passion and prayer and committment gone?

It all just reminds me of how weak I really am. How incapable I am on my own and it brings me back at His feet again...There are times when I feel like I'm fine on my own. I can handle everything. No worries, no problems, no stress....and then it happens again. Something goes wrong and I go crying to Him. Asking for guidance, praying for wisdom, seeking his peace. And once I'm restored, I go back to being independent..and it's just a big cycle that goes on and on.

My determination alone does nothing, but that passion and will...with humility...with dependence...with love for Him and for others...can make miracles happen...can bring light into darkness...can change people...

Dream big...but know that I am nothing....and know that He is everything....